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Questions. I get lots of questions about Adelaide. From doctors, nurses, therapists, specialists, family, friends, strangers…myself. I really do not mind answering questions, but sometimes, I would like to put a sign on my head that reads, “I have no answers today.” Maybe I have the answer, I just don’t feel like talking about it. Honestly, most of the questions don’t have answers anyway. They just lead to more questions. Adelaide is a medical anomaly at this point.
But, some questions could be answered if I allowed myself to sink into a dangerous place. A place where I start to focus on all the what-ifs and the could-bes. Those are the questions that are the toughest. And this week, I was asked:
“How do you not think about Adelaide running around chasing Graham?”
The person loves Adelaide. And us. And was genuinely wanting to know how I cope with it. She was concerned about my feelings. I couldn’t answer her. I just can’t allow myself to think about it. It is too hard. Adelaide is 15 months old and can only roll to her brother. That is the reality, and that is what I choose to focus on. If not, I will end up in a big puddle of tears.
So, I find myself grateful for rest. When I start to feel overwhelmed with all the questions/answers/lack of answers, whether they are coming at me from the outside or bouncing around in my own head, I rest in the fact that God already knows all the answers. Every single one. And, He even knows the answers in my own heart. The ones I don’t want to think about. And He says, “Just give those to me.” And I do. One day at a time.