Our Last Day With Bob

Our last day with Bob.

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It was the Sunday before he passed away. One month ago today.

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Graham begged us to do something normal.

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He told me Papa Bob was going to Heaven soon. He said that Papa would want us to play outside and laugh. So we did.

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And it is amazing how much the wind and sunshine can heal broken hearts.

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I didn’t even know how much I would be able to hurt until two days later. The loss wasn’t there yet, just the preparation for it.

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And now we are one month passed and I am supposed to say that it is getting easier.

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But I tried to call him the other day. I picked up my phone and opened my favorites.

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Bob. Dave. Della. Linda. My dad, husband, mom, and other mom.

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I hit the button without even thinking. That number is no longer any good.

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His phone is gone. Because he is gone.

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But I don’t know how long it will take me to delete it. Because we talked and texted at least every other day before he got sick.

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And we are approaching that anniversary of him being rushed to the hospital, and I don’t know if that will be the day I go ahead and remove him from my favorites.

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Or if I will need more time.

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But one month ago, we played and laughed and did something normal.

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And there is no photo of Bob.

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Because I tried to take one with him. And I couldn’t keep it.

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Holding onto hope today. And his sweet little grandbabies.

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3 thoughts on “Our Last Day With Bob

  1. Crystal says:

    my husband has never deleted his dad’s. He passed away on Christmas Eve 2011. Nothing wrong with holding on to it.


  2. […] had been preparing for this moment for more than nine months, but I wasn’t ready. I knew just two days before that I had said goodbye for the very last time. Graham told me on Sunday that it was time for Papa […]


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